I am now blogging instead of working because currently I have finished all the work that were given to me. Blogging secretly is challenging because I am trying not to be caught red-handed. I find that office work is the most boring and the most difficult to kill time especially when I have finished the things on hand. The other reason I dare to blog is because my direct boss is on leave today so the eyes are not behind me. Life here is incomparable to the days in Pokka because I was able to move around the production floor. It is easier to kill time there than here. Luckily this job is a temp job which will end on 2nd October. I really can't imagine working here all my life. Haiz....I need a permanent job which is more exciting and fun. A job which enable me to move around or goes out or travel out of Singapore.
Recently, I am lost again. I seems to have difficulty finding the real me, and I am not sure what I want in life. I can't see what is in front of me. I can only see that its pitch black. I really need to get away from my family, friends and Singapore. I am not being selfish, but I really need to get away from all these for a period of time to find myself and to know what I want in life. This feeling is back once again. The feeling of leaving everything here to go elsewhere to take a break and spend some quality time alone. I guess this is because I have been portraying different me with different group of people till I'm kind of lost. I feel that I have given lots of myself to others but not to myself yet. I need to spend some time with myself, and to do this the best way is to get away from here for a period of time.
There is this chinese saying "If you are successful in your career, you may not be successful in your love life." And vice verse. Hmmm....how true is this? I believe that there are people who can achieve success in both their love life and work life. Currently, I haven't achieve these two things yet. I haven't got a permanent job, and that special someone hasn't appear in my life yet. However, I believe they will appear soon especially for the career part. I believe that I will be offer a job that I like anytime now. I am not sure why I am so certain about it, but my feelings tell me so. No matter what happens, I must stay positive and stay positive.

Wei Si, jia you!!!