I finally understand why some people smoke or drink. Don't get me wrong I don't do any of those. I think they do that to somewhat put things that are bugging them at the back of their mind for a moment. That is how I feel sometimes when I'm in school.
I feel that I'm living in 2 worlds - the reality and the'virtual' world. I feel that when I'm in school with my classmates, I'm like in a world of 'virtual' where I puts away with the things that is bothering me. Maybe I don't want to show them that I have things on my mind. When I stepped out of school, this is where I have to face the reality. The problems that are bugging me needs to be solved, and needed solution for it. It feels like living in 2 seperate worlds. At times like this feels tiring, not physically, but mentally tired. There are many things in reality that I need to face, and to complete it. Handling 2 things at once is not easy, but I need to learn how to balance it well. Fear that I have must be confronted in order to break down barriers; furthermore, bring me to a new height. Jia you, I can do it!