Today isn't a happy day for me. I have received 2 bad news. One is I wasn't selected for a job, and the other one is I went for a job interview today which the interviewers' body language is telling me that I'm not the person that they were looking for. Haiz.....what is happening? Must I really go back to the food science industry? If I go back to my previous industry, all these 3 years of study in obtaining a Communications degree will be wasted. I don't want this to happen. I am only asking for a chance to allow me to either work in the PR, Marcom or events. Is that so difficult? Is it because my character doesn't suit these industries? I know my weaknesses, but why can't these companies give me a chance to prove myself? From the day I ended my exams, I have sent out an estimated 100-200plus resumes. Why aren't there more interviews? Why aren't there any offers given to me? I am really puzzled. Is the problem on me or what? I am somewhat frustrated because it has been so many months. Where is that job?!

I am now blogging instead of working because currently I have finished all the work that were given to me. Blogging secretly is challenging because I am trying not to be caught red-handed. I find that office work is the most boring and the most difficult to kill time especially when I have finished the things on hand. The other reason I dare to blog is because my direct boss is on leave today so the eyes are not behind me. Life here is incomparable to the days in Pokka because I was able to move around the production floor. It is easier to kill time there than here. Luckily this job is a temp job which will end on 2nd October. I really can't imagine working here all my life. Haiz....I need a permanent job which is more exciting and fun. A job which enable me to move around or goes out or travel out of Singapore.
Recently, I am lost again. I seems to have difficulty finding the real me, and I am not sure what I want in life. I can't see what is in front of me. I can only see that its pitch black. I really need to get away from my family, friends and Singapore. I am not being selfish, but I really need to get away from all these for a period of time to find myself and to know what I want in life. This feeling is back once again. The feeling of leaving everything here to go elsewhere to take a break and spend some quality time alone. I guess this is because I have been portraying different me with different group of people till I'm kind of lost. I feel that I have given lots of myself to others but not to myself yet. I need to spend some time with myself, and to do this the best way is to get away from here for a period of time.
There is this chinese saying "If you are successful in your career, you may not be successful in your love life." And vice verse. Hmmm....how true is this? I believe that there are people who can achieve success in both their love life and work life. Currently, I haven't achieve these two things yet. I haven't got a permanent job, and that special someone hasn't appear in my life yet. However, I believe they will appear soon especially for the career part. I believe that I will be offer a job that I like anytime now. I am not sure why I am so certain about it, but my feelings tell me so. No matter what happens, I must stay positive and stay positive.

Wei Si, jia you!!!

It has been long since I have updated. The reason for not updating my blog is because I'm lazy. I have been working as a temp program assistant for nearly a month now. I'm still learning and getting use to it. But recently, I have been making way too many mistakes. I am not sure what got into me, I don't make mistakes that frequent and this is a very rare. Work is still ok, but I find that it is quite boring because most of the time I'm bound to my desk. I think I not use to sitting at my desk 90% of my time. I still prefer jobs that requires me to move around. I WANT MY DREAM JOB! haha.....
I am still looking for a full-time job even though I'm working as a temp now. This working life really need time to get use to because I have not been in the working world for the last 3 years. I feel my freedom is suddenly being deprived of because now around 80% of my waking hours are at work. Haiz....now I yearn to go back to the lifestyle that I had during the holidays. I know I can't do that unless I can find someone rich to provide for me. haha....I think I am day-dreaming or maybe a sign for me to go to bed. I will update more when I can.