One more exam to go and I will be done with. Yah! After exams, I have more things to do. I have to constantly push and pace myself if I want to reach my goals that I have set. I need to put in 1000% of hardwork and 2000% of actions, only like this I can move to a greater height. If not, I will still remain the same and never move on. I DON'T WANT THIS TO HAPPEN, I DON'T WANT TO REMAIN WHERE I AM NOW. Life would be even harder, and would be facing more barriers. But never mind, I rather to have a harder life now and enjoy life later. I don't want the other way round which many youngsters are doing. I would rather suffer now and enjoy life later. I know I can do it, and would require great effort to do it. I need to overcome many things in order to achieve my goals. One of the greatest enemy that I'm facing is myself. I need to break through this barrier, and I believe things will start to fall in place after I have overcome myself.

I finally understand why some people smoke or drink. Don't get me wrong I don't do any of those. I think they do that to somewhat put things that are bugging them at the back of their mind for a moment. That is how I feel sometimes when I'm in school.
I feel that I'm living in 2 worlds - the reality and the'virtual' world. I feel that when I'm in school with my classmates, I'm like in a world of 'virtual' where I puts away with the things that is bothering me. Maybe I don't want to show them that I have things on my mind. When I stepped out of school, this is where I have to face the reality. The problems that are bugging me needs to be solved, and needed solution for it. It feels like living in 2 seperate worlds. At times like this feels tiring, not physically, but mentally tired. There are many things in reality that I need to face, and to complete it. Handling 2 things at once is not easy, but I need to learn how to balance it well. Fear that I have must be confronted in order to break down barriers; furthermore, bring me to a new height. Jia you, I can do it!

Today seems to be a normal day for me. I went for a hair cut, and it wasn't oblivious because the hair stylist did not cut much for me. After the hair cut, I had my lunch and took a bath. Rested and watch TV for a while then I went down for a walk. I went to rent VCDs to watch plus went to Coffee Bean to buy a coffee to drink as I love coffee. Don't ask me why I love it because I just simply love to aroma and taste of it. Of course coffee from places like Coffee Bean, Starbucks, etc are more expensive. Long long drink once is ok. While walking back to my grandma's place, I saw my secondary school ex-boyfriend. Both of us got a shock when we see each other, but after so many years plus both of us have changed, I don't know he still recognize me. He seems to have grow bigger in size, and I guess the 2 ladies that were with him--one is the girlfriend,and the other one is the future mother-in-law. If he still recognize me, I guess it won't be good to say hi to each other as his girlfriend may not like it. He seems good. I wish him all the best with his girlfriend, and hopefully they will tie their knot soon--if I'm not wrong, they have been dating for a long time.

Today is a holiday for everyone. For me, it is just a normal day because I do not have school on every Fridays. Yesterday, I met up with my ex-collegues for dinner at Brewekez(I think this is how it is spelled). We had an interesting night with fun talks, and there were lots of laughter. They called 2 jugs of beer, but I did not drink as I can't drink at all. I did take a sip to try out how it taste like, and I didn't quite like the taste. The food there was nice, but the price of food and drinks were a little too expensive. We had games, and some psychological tests. I met Chong Wei's boyfriend, and he seems quite nice. They have started not long ago, so.....I guess they would need sometime to know each other; furthermore, to know how will the relationship goes. I hope that their relationship will be a success. :-) I really had fun last night...... ;-) ,but back to reality there are still so many things on hand that need to be completed. :-(

I have not recover from my cough yet. Haiz....already sick for so long liao, and still have not recover. Worst of all is my whole family is sick plus my sis who is sick for the longest of all went for a x-ray. The x-ray shows that she has lung infection. She has also done a blood test which results will be out on wed to know the type of virus. If serious, she would has to be hospitalized. Hopefully she will be alright. I also hope that I will recover soon, and will not fall sick again.
I have so much things to do; need to finish my communication assignment which is due on Thursday plus need to finish the marketing power point by tomorrow. There is so much things to do including the business that I'm doing. I need to reach a certain quota that I had set for myself because I want to succeed in this business. I want to succeed in this business because I want to buy back all my time so that I can enjoy and relax. I don't mind that the road now is tedious and tough. I want to buy back all this time so that I can spend more time with my family, plus need to earn a lot of money so that I can bring my family overseas for tour. Hopefully I can bring my family to tour the around the world. I believe I can, and I will work hard to fulfill these goals of mine. YES, I CAN!!!