There are many things that I want to change in life, especially my character. I have many bad habits that have caused me a lot. One of it is laziness and the other is procrastination. These two bad habits are what I wanted to kick off so badly, but each time I fail time and time again. Why do these two bad habits seems so difficult to shake it out of my system? I want to soar high in whatever I do. It seems very distance to the finish line time and time again. This so near yet so far feeling can only blame it on myself because I did not do well for my part. I did not do well enough that I can reach the goal. The only person that I can blame for not able to get to the goal I set is myself. I'm not hardworking enough, I'm lazy and likes to procrastinate a lot. But I want to change. Why can't I remove these bad habits out of me? I want to reach my goals. I want to be success and soar into the sky like an eagle..........

Life is full of envy. Envy people able to do things we can't, envy people can go to places we can't, envy people can be so rich and so on....... Another cousin of mine is going over to Holland to study for 6 months, and he is flying off tomorrow. The only thing I can do is envy, and nothing else. Even though I'm eager to go to overseas to study, but I can't because it costs too much. My mum has told me "You need not think about going overseas to study." Haiz.... this is how life is, the cruelity of reality. Sometimes I don't understand why the things that I yearn for so much it is so difficult to get it. I yearn to go overseas to study, but this dream may not even come true at all. I yearn to do well in my business, but it seems like there is still a big gap I need to close down on to reach it. Why dreams that I want to achieve seems so near yet it is so far away? Is God playing with me? Nothing seems to be smooth going in my life, there is always hipcups somewhere in the road that I travel. There is always barriers that I need to overcome, and these barriers seems never ending. It is sometimes very tiring to cross one and down the road not far you see another. Why can't some parts of my life be smoother or be easier to reach my goals?