The end of June is here. Another few more days it will be the start of July. My convocation is near and that means I will be an official graduate. I went to collect my academic regalia on Monday with my mum. I think my parents are happy and sad at the same time. The happy part would be that I am graduating, and the sad part is I'm still jobless. We will be having studio photo taking at Serangoon Broadway, but it will only happen after my sister graduates. That would take place in 2-3 years time. I choose to wait for my sister to graduate because that would save us money for taking the photos twice. We are planing to have our photos taken with our grandma as she was the one who looked after us when my parents are working. I think we will be taking a few photos at Serangoon Broadway when my sister graduates. Individual portraits of my sis and me, a family portrait(4 of us), a family portrait with my grandma, and a portrait of my grandma, sister and me. I hope that if possible I would want a portrait of my sister and me as well. Serangoon Broadway will be happy as they will be earning a lot from us since we will be taking quite a few photos. I suppose at that time my wallet will be bleeding as these photos would cost a lot. When I get a job, I must save a part of my salary for the photos as well.

Staying at home has been the best way to pass my days. The reason for me to say this is because going out means spending money. In order to minimize my spending, I choose to go out once a fortnight or even longer. This way, I do not need to ask money from my parents. To live more economically these days, I started going to the library to borrow storybooks, eat 98% of my meals at home, etc. I have successfully turned myself into a homely gal. I don't know whether this is a good sign or a bad one. At times, I do yearn to go out with my friends or to watch a movie or to have a nice cup of coffee. I resisted as now I am officially categorized under unemployment status. To curb those temptations, I will normally go down for a walk around my neighborhood. The walk does helps me a lot as it helps me to take my mind off those thoughts. I know this is a transition period, but it is unknown to me how long this period will last to officially announce that I am financially independent. I really can't wait to that day to arrive because it is not that good to be still dependent on my parents. I would like to lighten my parents' financial load soon. To achieve that I need a full-time job. However, I have to be patient about getting a job because fate and luck play a part in the process.

Today is just like any other days. I received a wedding invitation from my secondary school friends. Both husband and wife were my classmates for five years. I will be attending their wedding dinner in July at Swissotel Merchant Court. Since I'm on this topic, this year I will be attending 2 friends' wedding - one in July and another in August. This will burn a hole in my pocket. Haiz....now already so broke :( But what choice do I have. The worst one would be my graduation that will be at 10 July. I thought the tea and tickets to attend the ceremony should be free,but SIM is getting money out of us - $16 for an adult which includes tea. I will be getting 4 tickets for my family - dad, mum, sis and my grandma. I will not be graduating with an honours because my GPA is short of 0.6 to get a 3rd degree honour. I am kind of sad, but there is nothing I could do. Anyway in the working world, grades don't really matter as the only thing which matter is the work performance (this is true and I am consoling myself). I had worked 21months before I entering the education system again. Once I became an employee there, everything had to be re-learned as there is a vast difference between what is taught at school, and how things are done in the real world.
My job searching is still on the go. Seems like with this bad economy downturn which hit last year, jobs are becoming less and unemployment are increasing. I heard from my dad that a cousin of mine had been retrenched recently. So I think if I still can't find a job after my convocation, I will have to resort to temporary or contract jobs first.

I forgot when I last blogged. Hmmm....I think is last week, and I'm lazy to check my past postings. Things that I'm doing now and before is still the same except that I'm now learning Spanish. I'm not learning at a language school, but am doing self-learning. This does occupies some of my time. As for job interviews, I haven't receive any after the one from Ya Kun. Even though I'm a little anxious and down about it, I know that certain things can't be force. People around me have been asking me to take it easy, but still as a human being, one tends to worry about it. Is it luck or fate that is playing with me? I'm not sure. Or is it that I am not good enough for them? Or is there somewhere in my cover letter or resume that went wrong? Not sure about it as well. I have sent out around 60 plus cover letters with resumes, but only one got back (which is Ya Kun). However, these companies that I sent out to consist of some which are employing and some which I am just interested to work in. The news is saying that the unemployment rate is decreasing, and more companies are employing. Hmmm.....I think is true to some extend because some of my schoolmates are employed. How many percent of them are employed? I'm not sure, but I believe they are going for interviews. I think that no one is going through like what I am going through now or worst. Haiz.....I know I should look on the bright side, but I can't help it. It is like luck is not on my side or fate is playing a joke on me. I am trying to be as positive as I can facing the current situation, but I don't think you can blame me for having negative feelings. If you were in my shoes, I think you may be feeling the same as well.

Time flies fast. We are in the month of June. Another few more days will be my mother's birthday. Today will be going out to celebrate Liyana's birthday. Her actual day was yesterday, but the star wasn't free. So we have to push it backwards a day later. We will be going to Sofra Turish Resturant and Cafe for lunch. I found that many good comments were given to this place on the Internet, and the price is at affordable range. I think those who read my blog can check it out. It is at Shaw Tower (the one near Bugis Junction). These recent days I have not being doing much, just the ususal which is facebook-ing, check out for jobs, reading storybooks, playing badminton, slacking at home and going out once in a while with my sister(who is currently having holidays) and friends. To be truthful, after spending a month like this is kind of boring. Haiz....not sure how long will I have to continue this kind of life, but I am appreciating it at the moment and enjoying while I can. In the meantime, I better go and get ready otherwise I will be late.